If 0nly I had the guts to feel this way!!

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 23:03:39 GMT

Hey Mr. Period.
Lets stop playing Hide N Seek Please.
NOW SHOW YOUR FACE BITCH SO I CAN PLUG IT.
Sorry for being graphic.
Its all mr periods fault.
he juggled my head!

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 21:25:22 GMT

im in a good mood.
i have been all day.
even though my period has yet to grace me with its presents.
owe sore nipple.
i want my gma to call the neighbors to see if we are going.
i would but I DONT SPEAK THE LANGUAGE.
*double click aol* wow no one is on
no wonder LJ is my companion.
I <3 myspace.
thank you tom for myspace.
if your on there youll understand.
lmfao.
Marroon 5.....
is there anyone out there cause its getting harder and harder to breathe. la la la.
If i could, i would donate my orgasms to poor people who cant afford them.
well ttyl bye bye

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 20:50:46 GMT

Okay Fellers.
I COME HOME.. on th 9th of August.
*thursday*
I have PLANS for the 10th Of AUGUST.
*friday*
So i cannot do anything during the DAY that day.
I haveeeee to seeee John I PROMISED PROMISED PROMISED <3
why he wants to see my fatass I ono.
But he will!

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 16:50:47 GMT

Comeeeeeeeee ONNNNNNN periodddd.
Come soon and get over with.
NOW NOW NOW.
I tryed writing Vanessas death.
Half way threw, i lost passion.
Sorry.
=(
Writers block sucks.
<---- Myspace whore.
Im talking to sam and rory.
Richard Kelly is now offically on FTJ.
He can be located on my FAVES. lol.
Something Something, vote for RK for president.
Crazy.
We ate sgetti.
The noodles were good.
Fresh.
Nicely done.
Derek & I are going to be friends.
Nothing more.
I dont think I could honestly handle having anything more to do with him.
Not in a mean way. But in the way it is in my head.
I dont know what I want out of life.
I dont know what I want to do when I get home.
There are sooooo many options for me.
And my mind keeps just fluttering.
I hate it.
I can barely sleep at night.
Not just because of the snorring i have been listening to non stop, but because my mind just races all night.
I could go home be a slut.
Be into drugs.
Actually get a job.
Move out.
Live at Home.
I have so many fantasies and dream things.
I know they could all come true.
But id have to do one thing and sacrifice others for it.
I dont know what to do...
UGH.
I want my linkin park cds back from the neighbors.
I need them.
It was so cold at the city I went to.
Im still kinda cold here.
I hope we go clubbing tonight.
It takes my mind off of things.
Sorry if im being a bitch to anyone, im PMSING whoohoo.
: a slut to a slut :
nicely done.
nicely done.
my fingers are cold.
i want to drink.
right now.
:)
immm doing so so so so
im doing so so so so
good goood goood goooddd
I <3 this cd!!!
okay.
im gonan end this.
and talk and go onto MYSPACE YES RULLESSS YESSS
MYSPACCEEEE

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 14:48:02 GMT

i got back from that crappy city.
im gonna start my period soon.
*gross*
I feel bloated and gross and im getting pimples.
VOMIT.
I like want to take 38398573 showers a day.
i feel clean in the shower.
once i get out i feel dirty again.
im hungry.
i want lunch.
<3333333333 toodelos!

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 11:55:53 GMT

Im going to a city that lacks clubs and computers.
Yes.
Hell.
It is 7:56 FUCKING AM
and i am awake so i can go to this city! CHOW

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 18:41:06 GMT

Grrr.. tim is pissing me off.
Fuck him.
Anyways.
I rode a horse.
It was funny.
Now im eating this chocolate sugar blah blah.
It is good :)
the farm is awesome.
i want to come home though.
16 mo days and im home! :)
The time will fly! :)
im gonna go. toodelo.

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 15:27:06 GMT

today we go to the farm.
I put on my pants.
i feel like ive gained ten pounds.
no my grandma just washed them so now they are alfjosaidjfoidj till i wear them in.
that whore.
today i will ride a horse.
i will attempt to ride a horse.
today is going to be horrible.
i can already tell.
bye

i didnt wanta kid so i adopted everything else and there mom.

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 01:28:06 GMT

Adopt Your Own Emo Kid!

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BADMOON
Adopted by ???

BMS Adopt-A-Werewolf

Art © Julia Grace Rogers</b>

Thought that was great*

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 23:18:46 GMT

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 22:29:40 GMT

my family just got back from my uncles house.
my gma is pissing me off.
im just in a bad mood where i dont want to deal with anything.
well not a bad mood, just a headache.
mike pissed me off like WOAH.
when i was drunk i told him i loved him or something.
i was drunkkkkk give me a breaaaak.
i have him on block now.
he called me a bitch and blah blah blah.
i dc.
so yah.
i dont think i am going out tonight.
i am so exhausted:headache.
but i know if they ask me if i want to go out i will say yes.
:)
i guess brianna and i are going to hilary duff.
>-- cannot wait --<
im actually excited.
:)
unless she is just being mean and fucking with me.
but you never knwo with her.
im hungry.
my gma is making me dinner.
i want to go to the farm tomorrow.
but i dont know.
i want to get catanuva over with during the week so it doesnt fuck up my Thursday Friday Saturday clubbing nights.
lol.
well im going to go.
chow.

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 17:09:20 GMT

Im sitting here talking to tim.
I dont know where to begin on yesterday.
*SIGH*

Have you ever seen My Big Fat Greek Wedding?
Well last night was My Big Fat Portuguese Wedding.
We started off by going to the church.
The service seemed like it lasted forever.
My grandma kept saying "Please Priest, END IT"
It was awesome.
THEN we went to the reception.
I sat with Louise, My cousins, and there parents. *erg my aunt and uncle*
I have so many of them here I cant keep up.
So first we ate.
We ate ALOT.
Then we sat there for a little bit.
Oh dear lord.
Then every attempted to talk English to me.
There were SOOOOO many ppl there.
I didnt know who i was related to or not.
they all started dancing to american music.
KJEOIJAODIJF
Just because they dance to it, doesnt mean i have to.
Even though it is American.. and i am American.
soooo my fucking loonie of an aunt gets this guy to talk to me... cause he kept asking about me.
He kept saying "do you speak portuguese"
I kept saying no.
but he kept asking.
And then he kept asking me to dance..
hahah FUCK YOU NO.
Thennnn finallllly after all of that we got to leave.
then me and my cousin flavinga *crazy names i know*
we drove around listneing to techno, then we went to my pub ;)
I only had 13 shots. lol.
Then me ana claya, her boyfriend or husband i dk, louise, mae, my other cousin flavinga and another aunt, we all went clubbing.
I was so fucking drunk.
it was sad.
Once outkast came on.. i was shakin my ass like u dont even know
they dont dance to rap music here so there were only a couple people dancing.
EU STO SHAPADA!
It means i am drunk lmfao.
So they put the spot light on me and everyone was watching.. i didnt care though, its the mofo american way bitches!!! lol.
My feet starting to hurt really bad so we left.
when i got home i remembered i left my purse and my key in the other car.
So i had to stay at Meas and my cousins house.
lol.
We woke up at 12:30 and i came home and took a shower.
I dont really wanna do anything today.

I want to see DODGEBALL HEATHER!! i envy you for seeing it =;
And I wanna see spiderman god damn it.
Well im gonna go take a nap.
Im g onna punch tim in the face. he is aggervating me lol. bye bye

Im B0red

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 17:49:46 GMT

Jew Fish!

Future Husband ;) ;)

Oh My Jesus.

I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 17:06:39 GMT

Level One:Basics
Full Name: Jenn
Date Of Birth: 1.6.86
Home Town: Hudson!
Gender: female
Height: 5'4
Weight: no clue
Hair Color: brown
Eye Color: hazel
Shoe Size: 9 - 10
Right Or Left Handed: right
Piercings: ears
Tattoos: 5
Siblings: none
Pets: one fishie
Addictions: Hurmph.
Sexual Preference: boys & girls

Level Two:Favorites
Food: Mac N Cheese
Drink: Cocino and Pina Coladas
Song: I dont have one at the moment
Shirt: my black tube top
Socks: uh none
Place: the pub here lol
Political Figure: Monica Lewinsky.. IDOLIZE BITCHES!
Mode Of Transportation: mah car
Album: I dk.
Television Show: Will & Grace
Ninja Turtle: Leonardo
Subject In School: Drama
Cereal: Coco Crispies or Cinamin Toast Crunch
Soft Drink: none
Alcoholic Beverage: Cocino;pina coladas
Pxnk Rxcker: AHAHAHAH.
Music Video: Emily Simon=Flowers
Television Station: VH1
Radio Station: 987 y0
Genre Of Music: any
Beatle: none
Big Bad Beatle Borg: pardon?
Ramone: none
Movie: Super Tr00pers
Animal: Panda er Dolphin
Store: any
Drug: any is good
Word: Ultra
Phrase: "Ultra Cocino"
Time Of Day: any time at night
Website: http://livejournal.com
Band: too many
Power Ranger: the pink one
Smell:My shampoo
Taste: coconut
Muppet: Miss Piggie
Rapper: Lil John
Chinese Food Item: sweet n sour chicken
Body Part: titties
Type Of Footwear: Flip flops
Person: none lol Heather wh00t
SNL Cast Member (Past): Will Ferrell
SNL Cast Member (Present): Jimmy Fallon- or is he present^^ lol
Book:
Simpsons Episode: the halloween ones
Cigarette Brand: New Portsss
Swear Word: Cunt.. duh
Number: ==
Actor: Vin Diesel
Actress: Kate Hudson
Color: Pink
Letter: J
Season: Winter
Day Of The Week: Friday
Month: January
Resturant: Outback

I got lazy so i didnt end it lol

Reminder:Dont go online while drunk;nevertheless, update your journal.

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 16:53:40 GMT

So last night we did NOT go dancing.
lol.
I meant to write drinking.
18 shots.. and NO HANG OVER TODAY! =)
That makes Louise Jesus Christ.
Last night he was like, If you dont get a hang over.. i swear im jesus christ.
I better bow down lol.
I sent my mom a txt to her phone at one in the morning indicating i was drunk.
The people at this pub, they are like.. i dk awesome.
lol.
they call me ultra cocino girl.
and the let me keep my shot glasses. lmfao.
This guy last night, kept telling our waiter to tell me that i was pretty.
iaoifjaoifjs
and everyone kept trying to figure out who he was.
and i just kept drinking.
lol.
then the guy at the bar was like coooocino.
and i stoped and made my cousin tell him i was only at 11.
and he asked if i like the club.
Which I did =)
Tongiht is the wedding, but i think we are going clubbing or drinking afterwards.
Even though we get to drink at the wedding.
God Im gonna be an alcoholic when i get back.
atleast i wont be a drug addict =)
Toodels <3

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 03:57:07 GMT

we didnt go to the club.
but we did go dancing.
i can honestly say im drunk.
its almost 1.
The wedding is tomrrow.
I better get some rest.
Chow.
ULTRA COCINO! =)

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 22:11:56 GMT

Mmmmmm i just put my makeup on.
Im talking to Mike.
I cant wait till tonight.
ULTRA COCINO!
muahhawawa.
I am the shot taking queen. <3
I hope they play atleast one rap song tonight at the club.
Im so excited!
I wanna go nowwww and never leave.
Okay I will eventually wanna leave.
Today I went shopping, I bought myself a shirt.
I also bought Rianne a pimp ass shirt.
I dk if she will like it, but its what they all wear here.
They didnt have mah size =(
Oh well
Im gonna go talk to mike.
TOODELS! <3
coming home at 4 am drunk is the best in Brazil.

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 19:23:57 GMT

Bold the shit.. you know how it goes.. lol

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air."
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer Can't touch this, bebbeh.
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."
12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head. (I had short hair...no fair)
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
16. You played the game "MASH".
17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it.
18. L.A. Gear
19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
21. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."
22. You wanted to be a Goonie.
23. You ever wore flourescent clothing.
24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
26. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts
28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence.
30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals.
34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates. (FUCK YEAH!)
37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide. (I didn't but I think my brother broke his arm on it once)
38. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
41. You remember Popples.
42. "Don't worry, be happy."
43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights.
44. You wore socks scrunched down.
45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"
46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
48. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies.
50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot. (OMG YES! You have no idea)
51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool. (well duh, I loved NKOTB...still do)
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class. (I could still tell you to this day)
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - "YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME"
55. You played and or collected "Pogs"
56. You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger.

d00d that shit is awesome =)

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 14:49:39 GMT

last night was AWESOME.
we went to this club.
they played rock n roll and techno.
i felt so out of place.
but i was so drunk so it didnt matter.
9 shots before we got to the club.
watche the guy attempt to sing nirvana.
went into the techno part.
d00d i had so much fun.
some kid wearin an avril shirt got his ass kicked.
mawuahhawa.
im so tired.
ohhh god am i tired.
i get waxed today.
and my manicure and pedicure.
AND....
then i am going shopping for an outfit for the club tonight ;)
cant wait to go :)
my cousin who is 18 is awesome!!!! I <3 her.
im talking to tim.
alright gotta go.
Bye bye

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 22:44:39 GMT

on the floor wide open....

like an 18 wheeler...

shes soakin wet..

SHAKE IT LIKE SALT SHAKA! =)

Im in such a good mood.
I took a shower.
Did my hair.
Makeup.
Now im just waiting for 10-10:30 so i can go to the pub!! =)
Call that bitch bojangles!

Rianne- you would love it here.
They dont even id you when you drink.. *sigh* Im in love.
Now im having such a good time I dont want to leave.
lol.
Well im gonna go and do cool stuff.
CHOW!

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 21:13:58 GMT

so yah.
last night i actually had fun.
went drinking.
i out drank my cousins boyfriend.
put him to shame.
7 shots of pinga.
a shot of some margareta thing.
and a mixed vodka drink.
we are going to this club tongiht that plays rock n roll
Balahda.
OPEN BAR FOR 10 reails.
thats.. uh. 3 something american dollars.
i cant wait.
i wont get home till like 5 or 6.
i really need a nap.
thats what im going to do.
bye

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 00:09:34 GMT

i caved in.
im waiting for my cousin and her boyfriend to get here.
im going to amke them take me drinking.
we have to WALK to get places.
i know.. sounds like dont it???
HAHAHAHA
well i hope to get oober drunk and maybe pass out in the road or something.
Chow <3

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 20:09:54 GMT

BASICS ...
name = jenn
piercing = 2
tattoos = 5
height = 5'4
shoe size = 9
hair color = brown and red
siblings = none

LAST...
movie you rented = dont remember
movie you bought = dont remember
song that was stuck in your head = Hanson
cd you bought = dont remember shoulda been the doors
cd you listened to = hanson mix
person that's called you = tim
tv show you've watched = some portuguese soap opera
person you were thinking of = theres tons

DO ...
you have a crush on someone = yes
you wish you could live somewhere else = yes but not here in hell
you think about suicide = i do everyday im here
you believe in online dating = no
others find you attractive = they keep saying bonita.
you want more piercings = yes
you drink = yes
you do drugs = yes, and i wished i was fucked up now.
you smoke = yes
you like cleaning = yes
you like roller coasters = yes
you write in cursive or print = print
you carry a donor card = no

FOR OR AGAINST...
long distance relationships = against
using someone = totaly for
suicide = will do for
killing people = for
teenage smoking = for
doing drugs = totaly for
driving drunking= for
gay/lesbian relationships = against

FAVORITE ...
food = belgin waffles
song = i hate my life- by jenn
thing to do = not be in brazil.. while im here sleep.
thing to talk about = i dont talk while im here.
sports = none
drinks = pina coladas
clothes = my pants that fit my fatass
movies = super troopers
band/singer = hanson
holiday = jenn leaves brazil day

HAVE YOU ...
ever cried over a girl = yeah
ever cried over a boy = yeah
ever lied to someone = yeah
ever been in a fist fight = thats gay
ever been arrested = yeah

WHAT ...
shampoo do you use = coconut asshole
shoes do you wear = sandles
are you scared of = not leaving this country

NUMBER ... of times i have been in love = none, no such thing
of times i have had my heart broken = 4809840534985
of hearts i have broken = dont know dont care
of girls i have kissed = alot
of boys i have kissed = alot more
of girls i've slept with = i dk 3 or 5
of boys i've slept with= not enough fingers and toes to count
of people i would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = one
of people i consider my enemies = 3847593845354
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = more than id like
of scars on my body = couple
of things in my past that i regret = 980395409345

FAVORITE...
disney movie = mermaid
word = Home
nickname = fuckoff
guy name = its not derek
girl name= its not brianna
eye color = mine
flower = daisy
piercing = nipple
actor = vin diesel
actress= kate hudson

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
pretty = no
funny = sarcastic yes
hot = no
friendly = not at the moment
amusing = not at the moment
ugly = yes
loveable = not at the moment
caring = not at the moment
sweet = not at the moment
dorky = always and forever.

22 more days---> 11 more days

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 19:56:53 GMT

whats that:
22 more days!
whats that:
22 more days!

Okay. I talked to Heather most of the day.
She talked to my mom.
I sent my mom an email telling her not to email me or not to call cause i dont want to talk to her unless im coming home early.

my legs are hairy.
i layed down and cryed.

my gma came in.
i hate her.

anyways.
i cryed.
and then uhh i cryed.
then i got hanson cause they cheer me up.
so now im feeling a little better.

i sleep about 15 hours a night.
and if theyer are 48 hours in a day and i sleep 30 hours every 2 days im only awake for 18 hours every 2 days.
So literally sleep a day away.
If i can keep this up for the next 22 days I will only have to wait...
11 days =)
muawhwah i hate myself.
anyways.. im sure i got the math wrong on that anyways.
i love talking to heather, nice reality check.
i miss her.
i hope shes allowed to spend the night when i get back like on the first night so i dont flip on my rents.
=)
my favorite pants are loose on me.
im loosing weight.
i wish i had a belt though.

i hate how my gma trys to feed me guilt trips.
doesnt she understand my emotions are numb from being here.

brazi=hell

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 17:47:16 GMT

my cousin and her boyfriend
want to take me shopping.
i dont really want to go.
i figure while im inside, i dont breathe up the polution.
i could be wrong.
how fun, her and her boyfriend.
she doesnt speak english but he does.
do they feel the need to give me a constant reminder that im single.
they want to take me dancing.
fuck
that.
dancing here is gay.
and intimidating.
tonight i guess the fam is going to one farm to pray to it with a priest.
sounds gay to me.
my gma said i wouldnt like it.
duh.
i hope my cousins forget to come here.
so i dont have to explain to them why i dont want to go.
my good explination is.
I dont want to go.
I dont feel good.
so now my gma is like, do you want me to go together, we already made plans blah blah blah
nobody informed me
nobody asked me.
i think thats why im so dispite with this fucking shopping go out and doer.
cause nobody asked me.
and yeah.
maybe i should go.
and make them take me drinking.
and come home drunk.
then my gma wont let me go out anymore and i will have nothing to worry about! ha thats it!
YES!!!!! ive decided on doing that.
*sigh*
i look gay in my outfit.
bye